THE POWER OF LOVE

www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVc2vTB-EQU

no he podido dejar de escuchar esta cancion y sinceramente AMO las expresiones que pone celine en este video (L)>

enjoy it :) hope that as much as I do

Lost. Fears. Death.

Bueno, no cumpli.... entre mi amiga que esta mal proque corto con el novio y mi familia:S

De hecho sobre eso queria hablar.... Tengo miedo. En estos ultimos dias creo que el miedo ha sido mi mas garnde pensamiento. He descubierto en estos dias de largo y arduo descubrimiento interno, cuales son mis 3 mayores temores.... LA SOLEDAD, LA MUERTE Y EL FRACASO.

Les temo horriblemente. Sin embargo la muerte tambien la veo como una amiga ultimamente.... lo cual me asusta. He llegado inlcuso a buscar formas de matarse sin dolor en google. temo.... temo que.... NO, no podria ser capaz de suicidarme porque se...se que con mi muerte vendrian la de mi padre y mi madre. Estoy SEGURA que alguno moriria de dolor o ataque al corazon.... y no exagero, estoy siendo sincera. La cantidad de veces que elabore la situacion en mi cabeza son infinitas.... y dia tras dia veo a mis padres pensando en como reaccionarian en ella:S

Mi frase del dia proviene de algo que mi mejor amiga dijo: "Me siento perdida.

Viste cuando ves al techo y no sabes que hacer? como... no se que quiero comer, no se si QUIERO comer. No se si ir a mi cuarto, al living, a la cocina.... no se, ya no se."

No podria estar mas en lo cierto :S YA-NO-SE. Me atormenta tanto la idea de seguir viviendo como la de no hacerlo que ya no se que hacer. Mi novio es la unica felicidad que encuentro hoy en dia. ya nisiquiera mis amigas llenan este vacio de vida que tengo adentro. Temo que llegue el fin de la vida de mis padres y no haber sido capaz decompartir el debido tiempo con ellos:( Me odio pro estar en esta edad PELOTUDA que em hace odiar a mis padres por ningun motivo ¬¬ NO ES JUSTO PARA ELLOS. Me odio cada vez que me enojo con mi mama porque se que no tengo motivos para hacerlo.

Quiero no se ser capaz de vivir una vida con otras preocupaciones y no estas:S Ultimamente siento quemis padres reenq ue fracasaron como padres.... sienten que no me dan todo lo que necesito. Hay problemas economicos en casa y estoy segura que papa(porque mama directamente me lo dice a la cara todo

esto) esta preocupado , siente que yo stoy sufriendo su fracaso :S DIOS!! PARECIERA UNA BROMA TODO ESTO!! :.(

SE que hay gente en este mundoq ue sfre mas que yo y bla bla peor la cosa es .... que yo no soy esas personas y no sufro lo que ellos sufren. Sin embargo, sufro esto... y ESTO me es suficiente para dolerme inmensamente:(

Walk with me

Day with obstacles...

To start with I didn't meet my friend, the one I had to talk to, so in a way I'm happy to not had to enconter that today. I just recieved a call from my best friend telling me her BF asked her for some time:S

She said something that particularly made me suffer.... she said: Que acaso esto es lo maximoq ue pueden amarme? 4 meses?.... well you know, the maximum I've been loved by someone was 2-3 weeks... yeah, deppressing right? I know. So I'm kind of afraid of my new relationship.... so I think I don't want my heart to get so attached to him:S Maybe things are going way too fast... who knows?..

I just had a talked with my mom on how I felt about her, as a mother who is already past the 60'.

Well I'm sad cause she might leave me any moment now but I trully TRULLY like the way she raised me up, in fact, I told her the truth, I told her I want to raise my children as she did with me:D You know.... I love who I am. Yeah i do have flaws and A LOT too but that doesn't matter I like the way I see this world, the way I treat people, the way i feel and enjoy life. Everything of this is tahnks to teh way i was raised and I wouldn't change it for nothing in this whole world!!

soo the phrase of the day is from Fushigi Yugi Ova 1: "We must know ourselves, then believe in ourselves and in that way we'll be able to overcome ourselves."

When i heard this phrase I was shocked. It is so true. The steps are in perfect order and sense. This simple phrase from an anime made me reflect on soo many things today and I know It will remain in my head for years. I trully like it. I hope it will help you see the world and, more importantly, yourself the way it helped me:)

I could keep on writting and in reality there's nothing that would make me happier... but my friend needs me tomorrow morning so I must have some sleep.

Eight days a week

Hi people:D I can't get this song outta my head: Eight days a week. It is my BF's fault for singing it to me :P

either way, here's today quote:

"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced." James Baldwin

Tomorrow I'll have to faced a friend and tell him I'm no longer interested in keeping our false friendship going on....

sooo wish me luck.

emmm I'm listening to Jason Mraz-Live High(L)

Gues I won't be able to write tonight... hope this will change.

love ya

A new beginning... =)

Bueno que puedo decir? jaja estoy de novia:P ironias de la vida jaja

Tuve la idea de querer subir una frase que me guste todos los dias..... asi que mi frase del dia es:

"Remember that happiness is a way of travel, not a destination." Goodman

Digamos que me pelie con unos amigos y este ultimo mes fue un mes de reflexion. Es por eso que hoy quiero recordarme a mi misma que no tengo que pensar todas las cosas a a futuro sino que tengo que recordar ser feliz cada dia:D

espero y les haya gustado mi frase del dia jeje

love ya

New changes, old wounds

School starts again and I'm SURE this'll be a GREAT year!! It is a year of changes and I mean good changes. For the first time in my life I was able to decorate my diary in time for school jaajja and I like it:P

In fact I would love to say that this entry is about how happy I am with this new year, which I really am, but it's not. I'm completely and absolutly debastated with, well you already might be able to guess, yeah, that's right, with love.

Not a new love but this unsuccessfully unrequited love of mines. It's bodering me again. I don't even see him now but I feel his presence in each of the school's corridors, in each class, everywhere. What's more, and harder for me to stand, is that I thought I was ready to forget him (and I am) but my best friend has become like a sister with him. They send EVERY DAY a message and then she tells me. I KNOW that's not her intentions. Of course I do get that but it still hurts.......a lot:( cause even if I want to forget about him I still envy her for being able to speak with him, to be as we once were. I envy her for being able to do what I can't, to be the person I most want to become to him. I would give EVERYTHING to return to that time...

It's SOO unfair... I mean I told him from the start I didn't want to lose him as a friend and that that was why I didin't want to tell him my feelings. But of course he HAD TO insist that I would gain something mor important. Well, here I am, and I don't see that SOMETHING neither I see my old friend:(

Well it's just a feeling taht will sometime fade, but his friendship has already vanished, at least the one I once met and the one I want. Did things really had to happen this way?? Couldn't they just stay as they were and (even though I do loved each of every memories) couldn't we have hide our feelings?? NO I wouldn't like that.... ARGGGG. I'm tired of this... WHO CARES?? I LOST HIM. HE WON'T COME BACK TO ME! SO WHY DOES HE HAVE TO KEEP HURTING ME!??!¬¬

I know I must have said it before people: love SUCKS!!

sincerely a foolish girl....

Nervous...

Okey I'm back. Poeple this holidays (except for my trip) SUCKED!! I mean I've been studying since the 1º of Feb. Now in 7 days I'm giving this exam and I'm TOTALLY nervous!! REALLY. I can't sleep well. I don't even feel well(I mean my health). I'm completely afraid of doing wrong! I mean, this won't be the end if I do wrong but... IT'S JUST NOT ME! I'm not the kind of girl who has to give maths in march. I'm not like that. Ok this entry is rather short but I just needed to take out my stress and this was the first thing it came to my mindXD

ok I just hope that you won't need to give any subject in march and that your holidays were better than mines... sooo, WISH ME LUCK!!